April is here. That’s very odd to me because the only thing that I remember doing this year is hanging out and focusing on recovering. No work and little obligation. It reminds me a lot of when I was in school. Which makes sense, since I don’t think there’s a time like school in a lot of people’s lives. Once you leave your school career, you’re pretty much bound to working until at least retirement, if not for the rest of your life. The thought of that is horrifying to me, at least when I think about continuing the line of work that I’m involved in now. Being unhappy just to live.

	But something happier that happened to me the other day was someone who works where I write regularly said bye to me. That was a big deal, because I don’t say anything to anyone. And the fact that they knew my name? That is wild to me. I know it only makes sense, since they see me pretty regularly, but that small amount of effort is great to me. I mean, I’ve spoken about it before, but life’s busy. Between trying to keep a roof over your head and trying to fend off feelings of dread, there’s a lot of stuff going on. So when someone acknowledges me and even gets to know a detail about me? That is amazing and touching to me.

	Of course, the possibility that the person was saying goodbye to me as a form of relief is there. I do tend to space out and stare at people for uncomfortably long periods of time. But, I try to think better of people. 

	I’ve had the idea of starting an ezine recently. I think the idea began because I’ve also been applying for writing work and trying to set myself up to write as a career. And I’m learning that there’s a lot of frustration in publication and recognition of work. I’ve always heard about it, but to actually go through it is tough. So, I decided, why not just recognize myself and others? It might not garner a lot of attention, but at least we can all look at it and think that we did something. And I know once I get all of the ideas and guidelines and logistics set up, I’ll be talking about it a lot. Because I think there’s a lot to be proud of when writing and I want to acknowledge that pride people have in their writings. My only reluctance is that it might be a lot of work that I’m not quite used to. But it’ll be worth it, I think.

	I bring up my reluctance because I return to my job next week, which means that a lot of my time is going to be dead. But when I think about it, I spend a lot of my free time feeling unproductive and seeking something out. Maybe it’s time to start writing and reading even more. I’ll have to get into that habit though, especially working at home with all of the distractions that are around.

	Anyway, that’s all from me for today. I’m hoping to post more updates to Portals to Percy tomorrow and to put more work into my other writings this week. I hope you all stay safe and say hello to someone new today!